Ever since I was in primary school my friend would make fun of me and call me ugly,fat,useless,etc.She really brought my self-esteem down and even physically abused me a couple of times i.e. slapping when she didn’t like something I said,and apologizing for it later saying she was “hot tempered”.It didn’t help that she was like one of those pretty mean girls,and I was surrounded many attractive people which made me feel really insecure,but I never said anything.I have never been very athletic or charming or anything outstanding,but I don’t think that gave her the right to bully me for my “deficiencies.” Anyway afterwards things never really changed I guess.But it sucks.I’m 100 percent sure I’m not the only one experiencing this.Boys around me are only interested in the pretty girls, and society in general mostly pays attention to that 10 percent of good looking people in society.I know,not everyone is like that.But almost evreyone around me is.Being in such a toxic environment is suffocating. I find myself really ugly.I hate my reflection in the mirror.I know this mentality is absolutely wrong but I can’t shake it off.I wish someone would just talk to me.